The sadness inside

   In my pale black dress which honestly looked like a nightgown tears were streaking my face that had already grown a shade paler.I was at my best friends funeral She had died in a car accident.The tears flowed again when she was buried.I shook my head in denial."She is not dead.Her spirit will still be alive,"I said solemnly.I stared at the grass.The place where she was buried.By the time I went home my face had looked pale white.

  Barely holding my tears I went into my room and sat at my table.My eyes were red.I saw the photo of my best friend,Lisa and me as babies.Memories started to flood into my mind.It was Lisa's first birthday.Since my mom and her mom were friends,best friends in fact,mom was invited.She decided to bring me.When I was younger I was very timid.Holding the present which was wrapped in a pink satin bow I went to Lisa who was wearing a gorgeous pastel blue dress."Happy birthday!"I said trying to sound enthusiastic.Lisa smiled and said "Thank you!You look so pretty!"We then started to play games.Although Lisa was very popular and all the girls at the party wanted to play with her I was the only one she wanted to play with.

  "Jessie,dinner is ready!"my mom hollered at me interrupting my thoughts.I mumbled ok and walked towards the dining table.I recalled my first sleepover with Lisa.

  "Jessie,I am here!"Lisa sang as she entered my house.We were grinning like the cheshire cat in Alice and Wonderland.As soon as she put her bags in my room we started jumping on my bed.We had chicken pizza for dinner and watched a movie.In excitement we could not sleep even though it was midnight.We told each other secrets that we had never told anyone.Time passed.It was crack of dawn.We watched the sunrise in peace.

  "Jessie,go eat!Sit at the dining table,"my mom said now giving a confused look.I nodded a little ashamed that I just stopped walking thinking about Lisa.I saw my mom and dad exchange looks but I completely ignored them and went back in time."Lisa let's bake some cupcakes!"I was with Lisa in her house.We were having a playdate but we were bored to death until I told my suggestion.Lisa's face lit up and whispered"Yes!Let's do it but we cannot let my parents find out."I agreed and we went to her white and black kitchen.We started to crack eggs very messily and threw flour all over the place."Gosh!We did a big mess,"I said suddenly, which ruined the mood.The kitchen was a big mess.Lisa shrugged."Let's get out of here."Taking our bags we both went to the playground near her house.We spent rest of the evening there laughing and playing imaginary games.

 "Earth to Jessie.Are you alright?You've barely ate anything,"my said sounding concerned.I snapped back into reality.A reality where Lisa was not alive."Hmm,I am alright,"I responded to my mom as I gobbled up my food.

 At night I sobbed.I made a promise to myself that no one will replace Lisa and she will be in my heart forever.